Thursday, October 28, 2010

My First Blog in a While

I haven't hardcore blogged in weeks and its because I'm ultra busy. I would love to blog more, I always have something to say, but I just haven't gotten around to it. My book signing party was a huge disappointment, and a lesson learned in street promotion. I couldn't have had many more things go wrong as I had with this event. Everyone involved with the event was disappointed in the turnout, but no one was more embarrassed than me. I had people inboxing me telling me that they're going to come and they never fucking came, and the Bears got their fucking ass kicked. Furthermore, ..I better not get into private matters concerning this event. Just know that I won't make the same mistakes again.

I am here to stay, believe that!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Writer's Block

I'm trying to come up with something, a poem, a funny blog, an angry rant that's hillarious, but nothing! This is why I keep deactivating my facebook page because I don't come up with funny rants anymore. I haven't written poetry since the time I typed one on facebook notes only for me to lose it when I accidentally clicked a link that took me to another page. My entire poem got deleted and haven't mustered the inspiration to write another poem since. I'm really losing my creativity and myself in a square world full of other people's bullshit. Everyone's got an agenda of some sort, but combine that with attemping to promote my book, parties, and other ventures I got going and its a real drain on me mentally. I also work for a living and every day that I go to work is another day that I lose another piece of my inspiration to be creative.

Now I'm just enduring an extended episode of writer's block. I'm ranting right now, but now that I look back on it, I also contributed to it by not writing every day because I'm too tired to write. Its like "aw fuck it, I'll write on that concept tomorrow" only to forget the concept that I had intended to create from. I remember Dante Feenix appearing on 60 Minutes with Glenn ages ago and he told me that whenever you as an artist feel drained like this that you need to attend a festival of some sort or a performance that features artists so that you can recharge your batteries and feed off their energy. I think I'm going to go to a poetry reading of some sort within the next two weeks.